One of the questions in my head came this afternoon and it’s directly related with the future. I went with my cousins to visit these friends at the beach today and we were talking about a lot of things in general, but one in particular still remains as an open question to me. My friend is gonna be a Daddy pretty soon; totally committed to his couple, he told me he was already buying a house and asking for a transference to a less active job in order to be closer to home… Then another friend also mentioned his time for commitment has come as well. ‘You know, we’re not getting any younger so we need to build the foundations of a coming future before it takes us by surprise’ and some other phrases like such took place in our chat. And I couldn’t stop myself from wondering: what about my future? Should I wait for that committing time to start building it? I know I’ve been putting some foundations already, but are those strong enough to stay up when that time comes? Thanks heaven no one asked about me and my future because I certainly had still not answer for such question.
After our meeting, I came back home happy but still with doubts. So, trying hardly again to avoid thinking too much about things I can’t control, as future, I go for some internet meaningless surf and found again some very ‘meaningful’ things. Contradictions, contradictions! Some hopeful emails, some cheer ups quotes, some nice apartments, some interesting rates, and some affirmations that I might not be the only one person wondering now what’s about to come? What’s next? Will I be able to deal with it?
Therefore, my answer to the future big question is: who cares? I think sometimes we push ourselves so bad to look forward to the future that we forget to live the present, the one single moment that actually matters because all the rest is to fate and destiny to sort out! I had such a great day today, I got wet by the rain and took back to our Childhood, got to be by the Ocean and be fulfilled of all its energy. I met great people, had great time, and got great pics, so why to forget these many things to concentrate in that only one thing I don’t have: answers toward the future?
I don’t know what’s next, I don’t know who’s next, and I don’t know how much time from one thing to other to happen… but what I know is that from now on (public commitment) I will live the day by day, I will keep working on the foundations for whatever has to come and hope for the best they are the right ones. Whatever comes, I know I’ll be able to face it ‘cuz I was born to be a warrior! So let’s be like the waves, up and down, big and small, soft or strong, but still all beautiful and all sure at the end they will ALL hit the shore with their perfect movement.
Peace
