So, WhAt'S iF hE's NoT tHaT into YOU?

I don't know if it's the weather, our daily routines, or just Mercury Retrograde, but a lot of people are splitting up, divorcing, avoiding commitments, staying away from trying... it's a current situation nowadays, and i can't avoid being sad about it. I mean, being a single person in this not commitments jungle is nothing you want to be... and it gives you a lot to think about it... and fears always take place. I'm particularly going through one of those days everything is hopeless, nothing makes you feel happy or satisfied...It’s weird and frustrating to feel like in a crystal box, seeing your life passing by and not being able to reach that very own thing you want. I’m sure you understand what I’m saying better than I do. It’s a constant search for movement, action, emotion; it’s the necessity of feeling alive even when you totally feel you’re not… hmm, in chicks talk is like having a really bad hair day permanently? Yeah… awful! And you meet that person you think will help you out with this, but hey… it was not, so you move to the next one that looks like yes… but no… and no and no… discovering at the end of the day that you have to go through this by your own, ´cuz you’re alone!

And what happens when we go on those days?? Everything has a “double” meaning even when it doesn’t, you wanna cry and scream for everything and for nothing, chocolate doesn’t make you happy but guilty, you hate your closet and all in it, and ( as I just discovered) shopping far from happy makes you feel worst. So what to do when every little thing in your world is falling into pieces, how could you find that happy thought that makes you fly again? Where’s that superhero that is gonna save you from yourself?

All these questions have a different answer, depending on us. But, there are certain things that can help to find them or feel better meanwhile… First: Stay away from food, don’t eat ‘cuz you can but ‘cuz you’re hungry or later you’ll regret that too. Second: If past is what bothers you, just leave it where it belongs, in the past; those things you did or didn’t do can’t be changed now, but what you can do about it is learning from them, and trying to avoiding, experiencing or repeating them according to the case. Third (and maybe one of the most important I’ve learnt) Do not try to fulfill feelings for things. A wise person told me this weekend, when you substitute feelings for things you gain nothing because when you got that thing you think would make you feel better, you’ll be very disappointed to see that far from feeling satisfied the emptiness remains with you. So go for those things that really matter, not objects but impressions!

And finally… think about what really matters, YOU! Being inactive will not give you happiness, but running after things (or people) won’t do it either… We live in a perfect Universe, so let it roll! Don’t stop reading the signs, but try to be clear while doing it… ‘Cuz as one of my favorite movies say: Sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs... And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.